the big examination to attend the high school brought many of problems. i found that some bad chances or something i havent known yet came and make my life complicated more than ever D: in a bad day that i felt really, really hate myself for being so useless and stupid, that emotion was so strong that i felt that i was lost from that moment. and after that day i couldnt think, create, writing and especially cant live and draw like myself anymore. i feels like i turned into a emotionless robot!!! these bad things come slowly slowly and that terible day is the day they started to change me the most. i dont know why it happened. Please somebody